There was a woman who was so desperate to have a baby that she wept daily and wouldn’t eat. She had tried for years to conceive, but to no avail. She became despairing, heart-broken, and bitter.
Have you ever been in this position? Where you felt desperate and hopeless all at the same time? You are desperately wanting… a boyfriend, a husband, another job, more money, a child…but it has also been so long that you’ve given up hope. You are desperate and hopeless at the same time.
This barren woman had a rival, who kept taunting her because she was not able to have children. The woman cried to her husband but he couldn’t understand her pain, so she cried out to the Lord instead. She continued to worship the Lord despite her season of bareness, and at one point she went to church so distraught that she could not even speak aloud as she prayed. She was on her knees pleading with God to have mercy on her, to be gracious to her, to SEE her in her pain, and to REMEMBER her. On this day, she told God that if he allowed her to have a baby, she would dedicate the child to the Lord. But she would not just dedicate the baby, she would also give her baby away to live with her pastor all the days of his or her life and be raised as the pastor’s child instead of her own child.
You see Hannah’s desires had gone through the fire, and had been refined. Previously, she had been asking to have a child for herself, but now…her request was for God’s glory. You can read more about what happened in Hannah’s story in 1 Samuel 1:1-27.
Sometimes, God puts us through the fire so that our motives will become pure. Our lives really aren’t about us. The sooner we realize this, the better. You know why? Because the sooner our desires get in line with God’s desires for our life, the more productive and enjoyable our lives will become. When we know God’s purpose for us, we are able to walk in his purpose and we become fruitful in what we do. God WANTS us to succeed when we are working according to his purposes (Romans 8:28).
Hannah’s story of patience, and pressing prayer helps us to see how to pray when we are in despair. When we are at our wits end and we have no one else to turn to, we usually have the most beautiful moments crying in desperation to the Lord.
Now, I know you are wondering, how desperate cries to the Lord can be beautiful!? I know it doesn’t make sense at first glance. But when you think about a child that depends on their mother for food and realize… that is what pure dependence on someone looks like, it is easy to see how our cries to God are beautiful.
God longs for us to know him and love him. Even when it is a cry of desperation, it is still a beautiful sound because it shows our trust in and dependence on him for everything we need. A child only cries because they know their mother will come. We cry out to the Lord because we know that he will come. GOD IS WORKING FOR YOUR GOOD WHEN YOU ARE WORKING ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE. Let’s continue to ask God for guidance, pray with complete dependence on the Lord, and ask God to purify our motives.
I love you, and God loves you so much more!